Reveal

The holiday isn't as fun as I thought it was initially. Everyone is out for family vacations, friends outings and so on. As for me, I didn't really went out so much. Perhaps I've got too much of housework to do as my maid went back few weeks ago and my new maid will only be here by next month ? Okay whatever.

First of all I want to wish my cutest greatest funniest aunty Happy Birthday ! I went to her house for the birthday celebration. Andy gave her a surprise kiss and she nearly burst into tears. How touching. Wish you a lovely sweet birthday aunty !

So I went back to school for the practice, well it was considered a practice. We were divided into groups, and teach members individually. Keh weng was with me, he was leading at first, and later, me. I took over the drum sticks and taught them of course. But, somehow I don't think I'm teaching the right way like others did, maybe not effective or not good enough. I sometimes wonder whether is it too good to have a post in the band just after a year, I really care alot about how people look at me seriously, the point I'm always acting like taking things reluctant not because I want to, is that I don't want to disappoint those who are believing in me. I care about failures more than others, just no one knows. I actually have some plans, but somehow there's come obstacles which stops it, and my team members ain't co-operative. You just simply can't show your disappointment or anger to them, as a leader, you can't show your weakness, not to those who are behind you.

I'm stressed, real stressed, just no one knows.